Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

and she knows

and she knows someday 
she will fall in love again
and she won't chase it down 
like a dream she cannot catch
it will come 
and it will be easy
like a hand slipping into another hand
comfortable and warm
it will not feel like running into a brick wall
instead it will energize and renew
she will feel at ease
at home
he won't be a false prophet
he will be as he appears
the truth on the surface
no need to dive and drown

"Inside myself is a place where I live all alone and that is where I renew my springs that never dry up." 
-Pearl S. Buck

Thursday, June 2, 2011

strange day

up and down and all over the place.  that is how i feel sometimes.

I glow today and the tears fade away
they absorb into smiles
and dry even in the Seattle rain
the days in Pittsburgh enter my mind
the clouds of darkness
thick with depression and soul sadness
my gentle spirit with daily wounds
now healing in a comforting nest
I feel like I have found my home.

we do the best we can-sometimes we fall down and sometimes we have to pick ourselves up and keep going.  Who really knows what all of this means.  Why we're here or what happens when we die.  Be kind. Be real. Be genuine.  Let life take it's course.  What am I doing with my life?  What is the purpose of our being here?
I seek the truth.  I long for meaningful connection.  I seek protection for my sensitive heart.  Direction for my longing soul.  I feel the anger and hurt washing away but now what?  I moved myself across the USA. . .  What happens now?  Where does this path lead?
Sometimes I feel so far away, the distance between me and all that I have known.  But I know I needed to do this.  I can't hug anyone from this far away but my heart is with them.