You are FREE to do ANYTHING you want to do. Make choices that will allow your soul to shine! Make choices that will bring out the best in you. Do not live with regrets because these past four years have been crucial to the growing and learning process. No need to be bitter or anxious over the future. Today is the only day that you have. Enjoy this day. You don't have to worry about anything. There are only things you do and you do not do. Worry and anxiety do not help the next step happen. Life does not have to be difficult, it is only as hard as you make it.
I want to help people. I want to encourage and make a difference in the world. I want to motivate people to live their best lives possible. I want to give people the courage to have hope and strive to be better. There is a lot of things in this world that are beautiful and good. I believe in miracles, I believe in love.
I believe I am enough. I want to surround myself with people who want to laugh and enjoy life. I want to be joyful and strong. I want to be at peace. I want to live by the ocean.
I have cried so much and I have been very sad since I moved to Pittsburgh. There were some good times but it has been pretty lame too. Going through the motions is not living. Being miserable is not acceptable. Learning how to NOT repeat mistakes is invaluable. GOD I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES AGAIN! I learned I promise. People put up red flags for a reason, if there are warning signs HEED them!!! Don't go beyond, STOP HERE! There is no need to crack a shell that does not wish to be cracked no matter how shiny the shell, there is no guarantee there will be a pearl. Also, do not put your pearl out on display for any old Joe Schmoe. It is priceless, you make him earn it! Keep the hinges of your shell's hinges lubed but watch who you let snatch your prize.
Putting all these pieces together is helping me see the big picture. I have to let go and step away and let the rest happen. When your life starts sounding like the lyrics to a country song, that is how you know that change is coming whether you like it or not!!!
Oh, and fairy tales are called fairy tales for a reason--THEY ARE NOT BASED IN REALITY.